Published on July 11, 2005 By Death_By_Beebles In Poetry
I beg for mercy
Everytime I see these ugly lies.
it makes more sense to bow to them
then to fight back on their turf.
Hoping they'll let me survive
just one more day and avoid
curbstepping my head.
I try to pretend I'm invincible,
as if whatever you do can't affect
me in any shape or form.
What a joke.
I'm just like everyone else,
trying to guard their backs and
get out of the way, incase the
fool called Told-You-So decides that it's my turn.
Turn to feel his pain.
Believe me buddy, I've felt it.
See, just a while ago
I fell hard once, and I wasn't able
to get out of my own crater for a long
long while. I still
limp when I walk.
You let someone into your heart and
they'll pull it out unless they truly
want you to be happy.
It always seems like that
no matter how hard you struggle.
It's a casual waste of time
to think anything could ever happen
in the abyss of space.
And that fool, he shuffles off to look
for another victim and quickly finds
them standing alone on the curb.
Who knows
how long it will take them to stand
back up again? I wish I could help them
but it's millions of miles between me and
them.

I'm too frail to hold out
by myself. None can stand alone.
And even with the
strength of God, I am not enough
because I don't trust enough,
and I end up loosing just as much

So for now I'm going to follow
through on what I said all that time
ago.

Es el fin. Yo estoy finito.

Comments
on Jul 11, 2005
Es el fin. Yo estoy finito.


Interesting poem, DBD--I'm curious about your word choice here--finito. It is an intriguing ending--"It is the end. I am finite." Or did you mean, "It is the end, I am finished/done" (terminado)? I think both could work...but I am curious as to which you meant to use.
on Jul 11, 2005
In a sense, you can't keep going on and on. There's only so much that one person can do.

Both do work, but I prefer "finite" to "finished". Does that mean I meant it that way? Who knows?

Thanks for stopping by!
on Jul 11, 2005
Al, quit your bitchin'. ...Heh, heh...j/k.

Don't underestimate yourself...you're stronger than most, and you'll go farther than you think you will under pressure. No one knows their true strength until they have to fight for someone they love.....you'll see one day.

~Zoo
on Jul 11, 2005
Es el fin. Yo estoy finito.


Not until the fat lady sings.. never give, up never surrender.
on Jul 11, 2005
Don't underestimate yourself...you're stronger than most, and you'll go farther than you think you will under pressure. No one knows their true strength until they have to fight for someone they love.....you'll see one day.


Thanks Shaun. Always there to pick me up when I fall.

Not until the fat lady sings.. never give, up never surrender.


Thank you for your words of encouragement. But don't worry about me giving up. I live to stand back up again. It seems like I'm getting quite good at it. God gives me the strength to rise again.
on Jul 12, 2005
I hope, for your sake, that you are not truly "finished". You struggle with love with some, because your love is true, real, and deep. It IS true love, and that is not always easy. Take Shaun's advice... fighting for love with with the right person is worth the effort and time.