To Hell with This!

Published on August 21, 2004 By Death_By_Beebles In Blogging

Been thinking about things lately. Been thinking a lot.

Here's what I've come up with. I know how much I mean to this place. I'm a big fat zero, a basic null space that writes articles periodically. This I understand.

Lately I've been unhappy with myself, a lot more than I feel is healthy and a lot more than I want to endure.

I've noticed that I become more unhappy when I log on to joeuser.com to find that I have not had any replies to any of my articles, and that they tend to basically get ignored. I know I'm not a celebrity on here. I know that I don't command the audience to expect replies. I know that I put into this more than I'm getting out of it. I know that I visit other blogs daily and comment, yet seem to get comments only from good friends and people who probably feel guilty for getting sucked into one of my articles.

So I'm getting out. I know you're heart broken. I know most of you don't even care. That's ok with me too.

This isn't permanent, but for now I think I need to just step back and have a little more time to work on other things.

I'll continue to post chapters of the story, but merely because I don't want to quit on somewhat of a 4 member audience. I will NOT reply, to any praise sent my way, any hateful words, anything. I'm not going to check my points. I'm not going to count replies. In all reality, I'm just going to stop doing what I do on here.

I'm tired of being nobody. So this is my so-long fare-well song. For now, Goodbye.

Beebes

Comments

thatoneguyinslc

on Aug 21, 2004

You know what i do Beebs...I deliberately bring the wrath down on myself to get attention....Works pretty good too!

I've read your stuff, and i think you're a good blogger. Keep at it. I felt the same way, and i have finally found a home here.

carebear07

on Aug 21, 2004

Alex, don't worry, it all takes time! Trust me, it took me forever to get people to read my stuff. Keep at it!!

~carebear~

Texas Wahine

on Aug 21, 2004

Keep posting and replying. As more people "discover" you, they will go back to your old stuff, including quality stuff that you feel has been largely overlooked, and you will begin getting comments on those as well. All the great stuff you have written can come back from the dead! Of course, I'm a newbie and I don't know much, but I would encourage you to keep putting out quality posts and stay involved in the "community" by reading and responding to others' posts.

SSG Geezer

on Aug 21, 2004

I can understand your feelings since it is mostly people I work with who go to my blog. Plus a few who i often respond to.
IF writing this blog is not making you happy; take a break, but don't give up on the masses here at JU forever.

apdelong31

on Aug 21, 2004

I know how you feel as well, this is the first time I've been to JU in a couple of weeks, and it hasn't changed a bit. The only thing I would get out of coming to JU is increased blood pressure, and a feeling of empty camaraderie. I don't know most of the people I read and I never will; why waste time in my day to argue/agree with people I'll never know??? I get nothing out of it in the long run, nothing is going to change their position on a topic, nothing is going to change mine. If anything DOES change a position of mine, it sure as hell isn't going to be someone on the internet.

I, too, shall take time off from JU, but for reasons other than yours. I do believe a good time to try and return will be after election day. If JU is still the same old same old, it may be so long forever.

Zoologist03

on Aug 22, 2004

Ok, Alex...and Andy....I know it can seem like a kick in the nuts everytime you check back and no one gives a shit.....it sucks....I've been working since April and I have finally gathered a few devoted readers.....You will get a bit discouraged but don't give up.....just take a break....some breather time, if you will....and gather some thoughts....then you can write a bitchin' blog and then everyone will adore and worship you for all enternity in blogdom.....MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!(Ok, I haven't been worshipped yet...but I'm workin' on it....

)

~Zoo

Muggaz

on Aug 22, 2004

Only when you know you are nothing, can you be something!!!

only when you know you are a nobody, can you really be somebody...

Cottelston, Cottleston, Cottleston Pie.

BAM!!!

Death_By_Beebles

on Aug 23, 2004

Thanks everyone for your support. I'm back, even though my self-induced exile lasted two days. I'm covering all I want to say in my next article, which I hope you'll all come to and read, even if you don't want to respond.

Peace,

Beebes

carebear07

on Aug 23, 2004

I'm agreeing with Shaun. I too have been working since April. I may have a couple more devoted readers than him, but not by far. Mainly all I get is all of my friends(the ones I actually know) And from time to time others such as muggaz, mignuna, dharma, and jill will come to take a peek at my blog. I used to always have Madpoet, but he hasn't been a regular joeuser anymore. I think he was my most devoted blogger on here! lol. But hey, don't sweat it. I'm sure things will get better. Chin up!

~carebear~

citahellion

on Aug 23, 2004

Reading stuff and making comments on other peoples' articles should be something you "get out of" JU, not something you "put into" it. I didn't even write an article of my own for probably 3 or 4 months, I just didn't want to be stuck with the "(anonymous)" tag after every comment I made.

Bottom line, though, if you're frustrated by it, don't enjoy it, and don't see it coming around in good time, you should take a break and re-evaluate your real reasons for posting articles. Once you've got those figured out, you can determine whether or not you're going to get something worthwhile out of being a fish in the JU ocean.

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