Every day I log on to my JU acount here, I’m constantly unsatisfied with myself. My articles don’t attract any attention, and I remain basically anonymous. So, in the light of these thoughts, I’ve come to the conclusion that my blog doesn’t really count.
I started this blog to share my thoughts with others and to try and create an environment for conversation about topics that I think are important. What happens when others don’t share their thoughts back? Nothing happens. And that’s what happens when I post something on JU. I feel whiney, horrible, and maybe sub-par for this “public writing” thing. In fact, in one of my earlier posts, I was told that I wasn’t even a good writer.
I guess life is what you make of it, right? Sometimes it feels like every time I take a step forward I fall two steps back. I feel helpless and out of control. Whilst my other friends maintain a high level of public JU respect, or at least JU visibility, I remain in the shadows. Maybe if I posted more articles, replied to all the articles I read.... I don’t know.
So, in closing, my blog doesn’t count, because it can’t. It can’t count unless other people see it. So if only two or three other people see it, am I really achieving the goal I’ve created? I don't know.
Hold on, I guess, when you feel like letting go.
Peace or whatever,
Beebes